An Excerpt of my 'CAT' experience

Finally it's over.[though the words of one our faculty that the game is not over till the last ball is played, still linger in my mind].The much awaited day, the mother of all competitive exams, 'The Cat', has finally ended.Nothing can change now.No matter how much I pray, how much I think about it, deep inside only I know that my fate is sealed. Only thing which can perhaps with God almighty's grace change is me and my family's fortunes. 


          I am not going to write an essay on my experiences of perhaps what might turn out to be the most happening day of my life. No. But I have to tell you, my heart was beating at a rate like never before!!.


          As the check-in procedure continued so did my adrenalin!. 'Tense' would not be germane to describe my mental state. To the contrary,I was somehow extremely charged and excited. I remember trying my best not to let the momentous occassion weigh upon me.The air-conditioned atmosphere, the biometric-testing, the strictness of the prometric and other administrative guys and finally the hour long wait before the computer screen did not perturb me.May be because for the first time before an exam of such magnitude I did'nt feel the pressure of expectation, the pressure of performing and delivering the best. May be because for the first time I had thoroughly enjoyed my preparation and was really not so bothered about its outcome.


         Amazing what pressure does. I had faced similar situations back in class 12, during those dreaded IIT, AIEEE, and JEE days.Looking at those anxious ever-expecting  faces of my parents then, I wished, if only I could bring an ever-lasting smile on their faces. This time though it was different. Mom was calm and relaxed as she could possibly never be!!.She didnt enchant those blessings with anxiety anymore. Believe me, this was the most relaxing factor of all. Yet, this also made me realise the somewhat ugly truth that I have grown up, that my parents are not going to always egg me on to study and make a name for myself, that I was on my own from now..........




Yours truly,
Koustav.

For Guys who feel shy to propose.......

Of late I have been much intrigued by the changes in the behavioural patterns of girls and boys of my age. No, I wont be getting into the 'girls of today Vs boys of today' debate, neither will I engage myself into the polemic of 'the changing face of women shrouded in a male dominated society'. No. This article isn't about that. As I pen down this article (which has intrigued me a lot for months now) I already take into assumption that girls have changed, and the change has been towards the good. From the girls of yester years who had been subjugated for eons,till today,girls have come a long way in changing their role in the development of the modern world.I have felt this change vicariously. On the other hand, what I have also felt is the radical change in the nature of boys. I say this(and with authority) that no longer are boys dreaming of dominating girls. But unfortunately, people don't care to ruminate upon this.What they only talk is about how women have broken their bondage and set themselves free, etc. But one thing is for sure.Women do owe their freedom partly to men. If it had not been for men sharing that extra space with women, it would not have been possible for women to enjoy the liberty they are enjoying today.(no,this is not a male chauvinistic comment)

But, in the face of all these changes one thing has remained unchanged.Girls still prefer to keep mum when it comes to expressing her feelings first... I fail to understand this, but whenever talks of love and romanticism creeps into a relationship the modernity of girls seem to fade into oblivion.They suddenly become shrouded in a cloud of shyness. They are then ready to wait for the boy to take the initiative...Why should it be so always?

I understand some of the inhibiting factors responsible for a girl's introvertism in expressing her feelings.A number of inconceivable flirts and dallys are but a big reason behind this.This is more so in the so called BIG CITIES.A certain category of guys do not seem to pause and think even for a moment before expressing their amorous sentiments vocally.Moreover, they do so to any good looking girl they find at every bend of their life.Consideration of factors like suitability, bonding in the long run, nature & habits simply do not seem to contribute anything to the rationale behind a proposal.Some simply love to compare this 'proposing game' to a mathematical "HIT & TRIAL" method. This HIT & TRIAL even if successful, tantamounts to meretricious relationships eventually leading to break-ups. Notingly, these category of people simply move in and out of relationships without any glitches.All this has created nothing but a confusion, in the minds of girls. As a result most have stopped taking proposals seriously.

Agreed. Everything said and done one thing that vexes me most is why do girls treat every guy as if they belong to the same league of the dallys. Forming a biased opinion based on what a few rich spoiled brats do, is totally wrong. I mean there are boys who still feel shy to express their sentiments to a girl.It is the fear of being rejected that haunts them.My question is why should it always be the guys who have to carry that bit of fear.

In this age of equality, its my clarion call to all the girls please do not hesitate to take the initiative. Otherwise you may end up waiting a bit too long.

Sorry et al.....

Upon requests here I am back again.I was recently asked, why do I post so less frequently.[My last post being in february]. Well, there are two reasons basically. First, the past few months were very hectic to be honest. From on-campus interviews to what not. Second, I  felt a dearth of issues which would really goad me too write.Yes, may be there was some urge to write after the world cup. But then again it didnt quite evoke much sentiments. 

Now that I have finished with the campus interviews(and thankfully placed somewhere!!) there's CAT 2011 to cosset. I know this year's already a lost battle but still I sincerely hope to put in some effort once the pujas are over. But unfortunately, the sad part is after the cat on the 4th of november there will be those dreaded awful engineering semesters to deal with.But I assure you I shall be a regular from december, happily posting some more controversial issues for you to ruminate upon. Till then, wish you all a very happy PUJA, enjoy this puja to the fullest, coz you never know 'kal ho na ho'.......


Love,
Koustav